Why Don't Your Friends Know About Us?

There is this albatross between us
growing silently, like a tumor
or cancer,
black and velveteen

Unspoken thoughts and words
circling inside this head,
like sharks creeping closer
to some sanctimonious bed

Here I lie
even taken you inside
your silent unknown partner
harboring some dirty little secret

Like Honesty, and all the niceties
that vaguely cling to the false hope
it brings when Reality stings
and won't settle down for anything

All the alcoholic drinks
and conversations that tanked
when left alone
in this unkempt apartment

Dishes in the sink
six days' worth
seven days of stubble
disintegrating self worth

mathiasthom
written 9/20/18