I've Changed

[mathiasthom]

All because of you I've changed
can't go on with this life
wrapped up tight in some black cloud
that never seems to dissipate

Yes the feelings are still there
just read one line
of anything I've ever written,
trapped for all time

All these plans waylaid
never really went anywhere
never stood honestly on my own
this exposure so naked and bare

Push me from this comfort zone
crash into walls of my design
smash through these windows so cold
climb outside and escape tonight

Take this equilibrium
this gravity only brings me down
can't walk a straight line
what's the point of convincing anyone?

Objects hurled from car windows
fast enough to react
exploding on impact
angry words trail away

Is it not enough that I've changed,
swallowing the poisonous mundane?
pointing fingers condemning everything strange
in some double standard refrain

mathiasthom
written 10/10/11